https://www.albany.edu/offcourse
http://offcourse.org
ISSN 1556-4975
Published by Ricardo and Isabel Nirenberg since 1998
After long years of the father,
her life evolved to a new core simplicity.
She found herself immune to the constantly fraught scenes
no new job could match or hatch. Everything grew easy
as she masterminded from an inner place
almost holy in its hollowness.
Everyone noticed her not wanting
to be noticed only to mistake how easy
even the most chaotic arrangements must have felt to her
as she became invisibly in charge of the flow
of people broken in their need to pretend
a non-existent power. That same power that slipped into
placing her carefully or casually in charge
and saying or not saying a quiet yes
in the washed Fresnel light
displacing the spotlight from the stage.
After her childhood worst she learned
the gentle miracle of finding a smooth approach
toward the unknown next. An inner logic
came to reside within her, a stability
previously unimagined in a younger skin
as peace eclipsed the once contagious pseudo electricity
her new constant center, a would-be home
to those trusting a new balance in the softer light.
I refuse to confuse
your name with
the face facing me.
Words sung
atonally as intoned.
Hearing your name,
I sound out
the syllables
found symbols
of round generosity
gravity impounding
a freer flow,
a flower without scent,
sent to breathe invisibly
a little while beyond.
Sheila E. Murphy’s work has appeared in Poetry, Hanging Loose, Fortnightly Review, and numerous other journals. Forthcoming: Escritoire (Lavender Ink), October Sequence 52-122 (Chax Press), and an untitled collection from Unlikely Books. Most recent book: Permission to Relax (BlazeVOX Books, 2023). Received the Gertrude Stein Award for Letters to Unfinished J. (Green Integer Press, 2003). Was awarded the Hay(na)ku Book Award from Meritage Press (2018). Resides in Phoenix.
Her Wikipedia page can be found at: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sheila_Murphy